I waited all day for you

I kept busy

I had fun

I went on a float on a lake

I drank vodka

I smoked a bowl

I waited some more

I came home and changed and got ready

I waited some more

I drove around

Waited.

Then we finally decided to meet up.

You brought her

We were all so tired all we did was drive around for an hour.

Talked about how we had nothing to do

About how we are burnouts.

Seeing you with your girlfriend made me loose every ounce of hope

Snapped me back into reality.

So when I dropped you off, I said bye

And you looked into my eyes and gave me the look

You said “bye” and “I’ll talk to you tomorrow, I’ll text you”

Just as I gave up, I was pulled back in

Back into this fantasy that will never become reality

Even if we both want it to.

every single day now

I can’t go a few hours without wanting to see you

I feel like you are carved into my bones

Injected into my viens

Flowing through my mind

A sick eternal drug

The eyes

The touching

They don’t lie

Yet I’m sitting here at 2:17 am wondering if I’m lying to myself.

Still

Three weeks later

Things certainly are heating up though

See you tomorrow

Ditching a family party to be next to you for the third night in a row